Sometimes, words don't come as easy for me as other times. Nonetheless, the thoughts and concerns stare me square in the face begging for me to speak them out loud.. Today is one of those days. The excerpt below is from a book I read a little while ago and I wanted to share it with anyone who stops by. It's a beautiful story and touched my heart deeply. It so reminded me of one of our homeless friends ~ Ms. Kendal. We have not been able to talk to Kendal in a few weeks and she's playing heavy on my mind, as well as Lance's.
The Grub and the Dragonfly ~ exert from the book titled: Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda by Dr. Les Parrott
Imagine a colony of grubs living on the bottom of a swamp. Every once in a while, one of these grubs is inclined to climb a leaf stem to the surface. Then he disappears above the surface and never returns. All the other grubs wonder why this is so and what it must be like up there, so they counsel among themselves and agree that the next one who goes up will come back and tell the others.
Not long after that, one of the grubs feels the urge and climbs that leaf stem and goes out above the surface onto a lily pad. And there, in the warmth of the sun, he falls asleep. While he sleeps, the carapace of the tiny creature breaks open and out of the grub comes a magnificent dragonfly with beautiful, wide, rainbow-hued, iridescent wings. But then, he remembers the commitment he made to those behind, yet now he knows, he cannot return. They WOULD NOT RECOGNIZE him and HE COULD NOT LIVE in the place where he started.
Like the lowly grub, each of us fears what is beyond our current circumstances. There is comfort in knowing what to expect, even if it is not as good as we think it could be. The power of this innate desire to hold on to what we know can compel a mistreated or abused person to put up with misery in order to have the 'payoff of knowing what's coming'. So it stands to reason that when we wallow in regret, we fear what would happen if we were to let it go. That's why so many of us hold on to regret for so long.
Like the grub, we can't see what life would be like if we were to let go of our should-haves, what-ifs, and if-onlys. BUT, like the dragonfly - who gains a new perspective (sheds its layers); we can reach beyond where our past has brought us and enjoy the glory of a better day.
We can move forward - IN FACT - WE MUST MOVE FORWARD - OUR FUTURE DEPENDS ON IT.
Kendal is an amazing woman lost to alcohol, depression and the streets. She is bright, beautiful, generous and very, very funny. She can also be very disheartened, depressed (suicidal in fact), angry and mean when she is 'under the influence'. She is an alcoholic struggling to find her way back.
There are obviously many reasons things have been so hard for her ~ but the bottom line is that as she has gotten older, her ability to trust, let alone trust the unknown is all but vanished. Kendal needs the help of people she trusts. Kendal trusts us (Straight Ahead Outreach; Lance Greene & Pat Mishler). Time is running out for Kendal. Her alcohol abuse is destroying her body and has seriously harmed her thought processes. Lance & I are very concerned that if she does not get the help she needs very, very soon, Kendal will become another statistic that the general public will never even know about.
Yes I believe Kendal is close to death. I also believe that Kendal wants to Take Back Her Life. Not the one she has known so far. She wants to take back the RIGHT to a life she can create, a decent life. It is our goal, our desire to help her do just that. But we need your financial support to help her.
We, Straight Ahead Outreach, need funds to be able to assist Kendal. We need your financial assistance to turn this young woman around before it's too late. She is someone's daughter, someone's mother, someone's friend AND most importantly, she is a child of God - just like you and I.
Please take this post seriously. It is a matter of life and death for Kendal. It is a matter of life and death for many. We CAN help Kendal, but we need your help to do this and we need your help now.
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